It’s that special time of year again…
For me and everybody else who keeps the Passover that is. But if you don’t, that’s okay because the intention is not to preach to you. But do indulge me for a while.
In trying to prepare for Passover these past few days, I have been, of course, examining myself.
In my cutting and dissecting, I found myself thinking about what it is I cannot live without…the things I would be willing to die for.
I don’t know if you ever think about such things but for me, this is largely what makes me, me. I thrive on being as open as possible with myself. Even when sometimes I do not like what I find when I cut open myself.
Anyway, so thinking about things worth dying for surprisingly led me to the notion of shame.
What are you ashamed of?
This question may appear irrelevant in this context but I realised that it is actually pivotal. Because the truth is, you can never die for something you are ashamed of, something you go to great lengths to hide. In the true sense of sacrifice, that is an impossibility.
I feel we live in a dangerous world when it comes to standing up for beliefs and dying for anything for that matter. Especially if you, like me, are a Christian.
Being in academia, I know firsthand the challenges of having to constantly decide where you stand. And to this day, I still have not been able to find the perfect words to explain the nature of my faith. But you see, now I know that I don’t have to.
My life is a mirror.
What you see on the outside is a reflection of what is going on inside of me. This is one thing we often forget – that we cannot hide our beliefs or un-beliefs because they have a way of creeping up in everything we do. This is what I know for sure.
What you believe or don’t believe shows up in every area of your life. This is why I disagree with compartmentalising life. Even in the sum of its parts, your life is meant to be whole. There is a powerful symbiosis here that you cannot afford to ignore.
So, what am I ashamed of?
Well…I will tell you what I am not ashamed of.
I am not ashamed of God.
I am not ashamed that He is my absolute everything.
I am not ashamed that my relationship with Him puts me in a very vulnerable but also powerful position.
This is where I stand. And this is another thing I know for sure.
As you go through your life, you will surely have moments when you have to decide where you stand. When that day comes, my hope for you is that you will not be ashamed.
That you will know for sure.